Often I find myself thinking about how different my life would be if I had made one decision differently. Often I find my mind wandering to the thoughts of the people I've lost. Why did I lose them? Is there a learning lesson or does life just fucking suck? I have my theories but lets be honest, the most likely is that life just doesn't turn out the way you expected. Ever.
Friends can break your heart too. I come to question myself ( quite often ) why do I let negative people in my life? I guess it's because you always want to believe that people have a better side to them than the one that previously ripped your heart out. Truth is, that's a lie. You call someone your best friend, which according to the english language dictionary means " a person who you value above other friends in your life, someone you have fun with, someone you trust and someone in whom you confide. The first person you call when you get good news or want to go out for a bite to eat is an example of your BEST FRIEND ". Another example is the one who you told everything to but told that to everyone else, the one who put everyone else a head of you because she knew you would give her the benefit of the doubt. I guess it turns out that I didn't want to give you the benefit of the doubt anymore and it's time to walk away from you. Whoever said friends can't break your heart, was never friends with you. You the one who loves too much but somehow destroyed my trust for many friendships. I wish you the best but you don't wish me the same, and that shows the different kind of people we are.