Today is Thanksgiving. I don't know where to begin thanking everyone in my life. I am speechless and so blessed. I have so much love surrounding me and I just want to say thank you. I hope everyone feels the love that there is. My wonderful mom took this photo of me and my boyfriend Riley. As you can see.. we have carved a pumpkin to look like an emoji, haha. We decided its tradition because last year we made the poop emoji. It's also a tradition to carve pumpkins before our thanksgiving dinner every year. " You don't carve, you don't eat ". I encourage everyone to go and find a special tradition for you and your loved ones.
Friends can break your heart too. I come to question myself ( quite often ) why do I let negative people in my life? I guess it's because you always want to believe that people have a better side to them than the one that previously ripped your heart out. Truth is, that's a lie. You call someone your best friend, which according to the english language dictionary means " a person who you value above other friends in your life, someone you have fun with, someone you trust and someone in whom you confide. The first person you call when you get good news or want to go out for a bite to eat is an example of your BEST FRIEND ". Another example is the one who you told everything to but told that to everyone else, the one who put everyone else a head of you because she knew you would give her the benefit of the doubt. I guess it turns out that I didn't want to give you the benefit of the doubt anymore and it's time to walk away from you. Whoever said friends can't break your heart, was never friends with you. You the one who loves too much but somehow destroyed my trust for many friendships. I wish you the best but you don't wish me the same, and that shows the different kind of people we are.
I didn't lose something, but something is missing. Perhaps my career. I am 19 years old and I work at a tanning salon in a city outside of Vancouver, BC. I make youtube videos and spend most of my time worrying about what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I don't know what the next journey in my life will be but I hope it leads me somewhere better than this. Don't get me wrong I love my life. I have the best people by my side but I still feel like there is so much more out there. More is just another word for what the heck I'm gonna spend the rest of my life doing. Also, if you haven't figured out already my thoughts are disorganized and I jump from one thing to another, something my high school english teacher had told me not to do. I guess it's a good thing that this is my blog and not hers.
So welcome to my thoughts, I hope to be some sort of entertainment.